Sorry. A word that is overused and meaningless in today's society. Sorry can't erase the pain inflicted on people. "Why are you writing about this?", you may ask. Well because I've said "sorry" a lot this past year. I've made excuses for my behavior and my comments no matter what the situation was and I used "I'm sorry" as way to try make things better.
I'm a mean person. I know that some of you hate me and you have that right. I also know that some of you think that I'm not a mean person. But the truth is that, I am. I say rude things and I hurt the feelings of others. Sometimes unintentionally and sometimes on purpose. I'm sarcastic and have no filter. I say what come to my mind before thinking and don't care if it hurts others.
I used to think that I was just being honest and that it wasn't my fault if people couldn't handle the truth. I was hurting people. I was becoming some one I despise, a bully.
A bully. Do you what that means? I was becoming like the people that picked on me for so long. I was becoming like the people that made me feel horrible each an everyday. I was becoming someone else entirely new.
I try to be friendly and nice. I try my best to make people like me and see that I can be a really cool person when given the chance. But that chance was taken for granted. By me.
But not anymore. Now I stand here not saying "sorry", not saying "it won't happen again" because lets face it shit happens. What I am standing asking for is forgiveness. I'm working on my filter. I'm working on not being a "diva". I'm not the most talented or greatest person ever. I am a human. We all have flaws. We are all equal. I'm not better than any of y'all. I am just simply Dustin Bradley. A small town kid with a big dream that is afraid. Afraid what will happen if my dream doesn't come true. I am Dustin Bradley and I'm asking for your forgiveness.
To all of those I have ever hurt. Even my worst enemies. I ask for forgiveness. So is it too late to apologize?